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i'm really not sure what to think about much of anything right now... i'm mostly just trying to concentrate on getting moved.... But I'm broke... I'm praying that my tax refund comes in before my bills are due again... it might, but i really am not sure.... The way i did it, supposedly it should be back within 2 weeks or so... Gods i'm fucking hoping... After i get all my shit at least IN the apartment, I'm gonna start going look for a second job... Everyone i talk to is so against me going to a daiquiris shop, but i think thats where i wanna go... Although I'm not sure which one... i just need something at night and maybe on weekends... it fits... So, Yea I'm hoping that i'll be making it by soon...

As far as the whole guy things go... yea i want one... yea i'm interested in someone... and yea i hate that... i wish i either had someone, or was just not interested... because i hate how blah i get over that shit.... ugh...

I gotta head to work soon... in about 2 hours... whoot... hear the excitement in my voice?

It was cute though, i let sage stay out all night, and while i had to wake up and fuss at him 2-3 times last night... he was uber sweet this morning... licking my face and rubbing on my arms and legs... bein really affectionate... i love it when he's like that :) soon as i woke up this morning he ran up to me lol... he's in my closet right now... lord knows why
Oh Lord... Craziness...

Ok, so I'm about to sit down and start fumbling through trying to get my taxes done... eewww....

And then tomorrow, I'M OF-F!!!! LOL (I said that like Peanut, for those of you who know what i'm talkin about lol)

I've got 2 apartment buildings to ride by, see if I think the area is good, and then give them a call and talk to them... I am hoping that some stuff is open.. but god I probably wont have money for a deposit til next week, so i might have to write a hot check, beg daddy for money, and run it to the bank real fast so the check wont be hot anymore LOL... I'm a nut I know... But I'm kinda excited... And I've had a few people say that they're interested in finding a roomie, so if i get a 2 bedroom, I'll probably be able to get one... YAY!!!! I MIGHT HAVE A ROOMIE SOON!!! Roomies can be fun...

(crap i just dropped my food on the floor ROFL)

I'm kinda worried about David tho... I'm wondering some things... He's been really distant this past week... I miss him

yea and i kinda have an arrangement with a friend lol... I'm opposed to long distance relationships, but when he's in town he's allowed to date me while he's here for the weekend haha...

Oh, and Kevin and I are running away to London together... lol jk... no but we do both wanna move out there lol

back from bama

k... so i'm back from Alabama... it was cool. 6 and a half hours there and 6 and a half hours back... the drive kinda blew... would have been easier if i'd had company tho... :'( I tried but noone could come! :'( oh well... Got my hair cut while i was there... THANK YOU SISSY! It was good to get away for a couple of days... really...

Hola!!!

hey... i decided to start posting again... no real idea why.. i just feel like it... right now i dont have much i feel like saying tho

busy busy busy

I'm supposed to be busy today... I need to:

take a shower
get dressed
Call around and get estimates on the work for my car (i hate making phonecalls)

Air up my tire do I can drive to these things
Get my windshield replaced TOMORROW!!!
Get the short in my reverse lights sorted outMONDAY!
Patch my tire where the nail is
(i need new tires, but thats for another day)
Get my car inspectedTUESDAY!!!
Pay my insurance
Make a deposit at the bank
go to the gym



*sigh*

You guys can call me (if you have the number) if you want. I'm sure if I am able to get this mess done, then I'll be sitting a waiting a LOT, especially later on today

Much love!

[EDIT] I made a lot of appointments today LOL... then just went swimming hahaha.....

so sad...

Thats so sad. Mrs. Shannon, one of the ladies that my mom babysits for during the week, well, first off, she tried for 10 years to have her first baby. They ended up having to concieve in-vitro but finally had Aden. And well, she found out a few weeks ago that she was pregnant, which was basically a miracle, especially for her, cause she wasnt supposed to be able to get pregnant. And well, she's 11 weeks now, and found out today that her baby is dead. She has to have a DNC sometime soon to remove the dead fetus. That is soooooo sad. :'( I hope she tries again. Poor baby.

you were fine

It's upsetting you know
feeling like you've all but lost
one of the most important people in your life
and about the only thing you can think of to do
is crawl back on bended knee and apologize
for crimes you never committed
you cant think of another way
you didnt do anything wrong
so why are you the one being punished
why should you have to apoligize
for merely being upset
when it was your right to be so
you felt betrayed
no matter that it was all avoidable
and maybe even a little misunderstood
but you had every right to be upset
you felt like it was happening again
like they were all conspiring behind you again
who does that crap to their friends
you wouldnt think anyone
but it's been done to you before
and you were afraid that your biggest fears were realized
and that it was all coming around on you again
and you couldnt fathom why it would happen
you thought they knew you better than that
why would you be upset at someone for sometihng trivial
you both have bigger things to worry about
and once it was finally admitted to you
and you spoke your peace
you were fine
once the apology was made for the misunderstanding
you were fine
so why does the phone still not ring
why do you still feel like your being ignored
why are all of your messages going unanswered
why do you feel like you're trying and getting nowhere
...
and then you start to wonder
why the fuck do you even care
you've been through all of this before
you already know that noone ever stays
friends just come and go
thats how its always been
noone has ever given enough of a crap
to even care about you
its not like you have ever been anyones confidant
noone ever relied on you
noone ever confided in you
you spill your heart out to someone
and its only a matter of time until they step on it
you speak all of your dark secrets
and let the skeletons out of your closet
and all for what
they always forget you in the end
...
so again you wonder
why the fuck do you even care
and then you realize
it's because they mean the world to you
you've always had this really bad habit
of falling in love with your closest friends
so when they do something like this
it leaves a scar
and all you can do is wait
hold back the tears and wait

junk

i'm bored. Cant read cause when i try to thats when Aden decides he wants to come "talk" to me and then when i tell him to hush and go play he starts like running circles around me.... urrrg! and I cant bug people on myspace cause it is FUCKED UP... wont send any of my messages or post my bulletins or even just come up half of the time... STUPID ASS SITE!



uurg... and I itch... i guess I need another bath... hasnt even been a day since my last one.... but it sucks and hurts to take one because of this big GASH on my achilles! Cant even get it wet cause it STINGS...

I cant even go to the gym anymore!! I CANT WEAR SHOES!
So I went anyways the other night... was in there maybe 10 minutes doing the upperbody machines and then i got upset cause I couldnt do anything else, so i left. So i've decided unless I need to tan to, im just not going until I can put on some shoes. effing hell.


and then work DRAMA... good GODS! I'm not even going to get started...

But on a good note... Adam and I basically picked our kids names LOL.
Elijah Laine (Eli) and Gabrielle (Gabi) Rae hahaha he gave into the ones I wanted. He likes Claire but I've been DEAD set on Gabrielle Rae since I was like 5 years old LOL...... and I thought up Eli, but he really really liked it, so it worked.... he likes Leon too.... cause its.... interesting LOL.... it's a cool name, we'll see though LOL

The book of Rachel

First the Chapters of my Life:

Chapter 1:

Initials: RLO
Middle name: LAINE
Birthday: NOVEMBER 21, 1983
Current location: COUCH IN THE LIVINGROOM
Height: 5'1"
Hair length: SHOULDERBLADES
Eye color: HAZEL.... A MUDDY MIX OF GREEN AND BROWN RINGS
piercings: TWO IN EACH EAR AND MY TONGUE. HAD MY NAVEL DONE ONCE
Birthmarks: NONE ACTUALLY. hAD A STRAWBERRY ON MY HEAD WHEN I WAS A BABY BUT IT WAS GONE BY THE TIME I GOT INTO SCHOOL

Chapter 2:

Do you live with your parents: UNFORTUNATELY...YES.
Do you get along with your parents? MOST OF THE TIME
Are your parents married/separated/divorced? DIVORCED SINCE I WAS 1
Do you have any siblings? AN OLDER SISTER AND A YOUNGER BROTHER
What pets do you have? 2 FAMILY DOGS (MATTIE A CHOCOLATE LAB AND SAM A CHIHUAHUA) AND PERSONALLY 2 FISH A RABBIT AND A TURTLE

Chapter 3: Favorites

City: ONE I'VE NEVER BEEN TO APPARENTLY
Ice cream flavor: COFFEE
Season: SPRING AND FALL
Clothing brand: L.E.I.
Color: BLACK
Number: 7 AND 13

Chapter 4: Do You ...

Sing in the shower? NO
Write memos on your hand? NOT USUALLY
Call people back?: SOMETIMES
Believe in love?: AM NOW THANK YOU
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? YEA THE RIGHT SIDE
Wear glasses or contacts? GLASSES

Chapter 5: Have You Ever...

Worn braces?: YEA FOR 4 YEARS
Broken a bone?: I GUESS TECHNICALLY I HAVE. FRACTURED MY SKULL IN A CAR ACCIDENT AS A TODDLER AND DISLOCATED A KNUCKLE WHEN I WAS 18
Had stitches? SEVERAL TIMES
Punched someone in the face? NO
Skipped school?: WHO HASNT?
Gone SCUBA diving?: NOPE
Been stung by a bee?: NO. BUT I'VE BEEN STUNG BY WASPS SEVERAL TIMES
Thrown up in a restaurant?: NO
Been to overnight camp? NO
Written a letter to Santa Claus? NOT SINCE I WAS A LITTLE GIRL
Had detention?: ONLY ONCE
Been sent to the principal's office?: YES, BUT NOT FOR BEING IN TROUBLE NO
Been called a bitch? MANY TIMES

Chapter 6: Who/What was the last..

Person to IM you? SHELLY, LAST NIGHT
Person to call you?: BEN, ONLY I WAS ASLEEP SO I DIDNT HEAR IT, MUCH LESS ANSWER IT
Person you hugged?: MY BROTHER GOODNIGHT LAST NIGHT
Person you tackled?: PROBABLY ADAM LOL
Thing you touched? KEYBOARD, AND THERE IS A PILLOW LEANING UP AGAINST MY ARM
Thing you ate? SAUSAGE EGG AND CHEESE CROISSANT JIMMY DEAN STYLE
Drank? CARAMEL CAPPUCCINO
Thing you said? UM, I WAS HAVING A CONVERSATION ABOUT AN ANNOYING FORMER COWORKER WHOM I TOLD OFF A FEW TIMES

Now 40 "Random" Questions......

40 RANDOM questions:

WHIP OUT YOUR CELL:
last missed call - BEN
last recieved - ADAM
last call made - JESS
last text recieved - ADAM

CURRENT:
what channel is the tv on - LPB, BUT I'M NOT THE ONE WATCHING. ITS ON FOR THE BABY
IMs are up - NADA
what song is playing - ON THE TV, FOR THE BABY MIND YOU, BARNEY IS GOING OFF. THE I LOVE YOU SONG IS BEING SUNG. I'M SERIOUSLY DEBATING ON WHIPPING OUT THE HEADPHONES
whats on the computer- MYSPACE, 2 PAGES OF FANFICTION.NET, MY AIM BUDDY LIST AND A FEW WIDGETS

FAVORITE:
type of pizza - ALFREDO
football team - LSU
shirt that you own- MY BLACK MARS ARMY TSHIRT WITH THE ARROW ON THE BACK

OTHER RANDOM:
whats the time - 11:14AM
whats the date - MARCH 13, 2006
whats the day - MONDAY
light or dark out- LIGHT
Do you own a washing machine - MY PARENTS DO
Do you own more than 5 tv sets - NO, I ONLY HAVE ONE. BUT BETWEEN THE OTHERS IN THE HOUSE THERE ARE 4 TOTAL I BELIEVE
Do you own a toaster- NO, MOM HAS A TOASTER OVEN THOUGH
Do you own a house with 2 floors - NOPE

WHAT DO U THINK OF WHEN I SAY
cat - KITTY!
jump - EEP!
bed - COMPHY
food - YUM
scratch and sniff - EWW

RANDOM AGAIN
What are you wearing? JEANS AND A M.A.S.H. TSHIRT
Whats your favorite color(s)? BLACK
Who is your Idol/Hero(s)? DUNNO
How old are you? 22
Are you a PIMP? NOPE, AND I'M NOT A PIMPETTE EITHER